Bloodedsky,
Well, now that I'm about a month late on this, I'll do my introduction now. First off, Welcome to this site, the people here are amazing! Ty is this amazing person who I ignored for about 5 months maybe, anywho, she's amazing.
It's really hard to let go of feelings that we've live with for so long, become, that we're afraid that if we let go, we're letting a part of us go, which in a way, we have, and its scary. (Wow, that was a way run on sentence, my english teacher would kill me.)

I've been talking with my cousin, who is a physicologist, and she's been trying to help me let go of guilt, which I'd rather not because it's part of whom I've become.
And if you think you're a strange person, well I reckon you haven't met me. Oh, and something else I was assigned to do by an older friend is to write at least 5 different positive things about myself everyday. I hated it because one, it made me change my thinking pattern, and two, it made me think period. But it helped. And I guess I'm weirder than all ya'll, because about the friend making thing, I can't seem to stop making friends wherever I go, but the truth be told, their not really friends, maybe on the surface, but not deep friends. I guess it was a part of who I was to make amazing friends that I'd have forever, so I do it now just because it's familiar, but I barely make acqaintinces(no idea how to spell that)
But cheer up, because you have made an amazing choice coming here. And these people will more than likely, be able to help you, be there for you, laugh with you, or cry, I will try my hardest to make a smile come to you face, that's my job, well thats what I think anyway.
Hang in there, and take one day at a time.
All my love,
Becca