I just wanted to share a dream I had about Karen Carpenter with you. I had it just over a month ago when I was really struggling with anorexia.


I saw Karen and went up to her and siad, "I am anorexic-like you, but you are going to die in 1983 when you are 32."
She asked me how I knew and I said I had found a way to go back through time to tell her, that I was from the future and in my time she was already dead.
She didn't listen to me and started jogging with 2 big bodyguards on either side of her. As she ran, she became thinner and thinner-frailer and frailer.
I watched her jog away and just KNEW she was going to die. Then I woke up.
I felt as though the dream was a warning to me.

Hi Riv,
Yes, the profoundness of the dream has stayed with me, and my attitude to food had most definitely changed.
It is hard to know whether I would have started eating properly again if I had not become pregnant, or not.
One of the reasons I was so depressed was because of my miscarriage last year.
I am starting to believe that everything happens for a reason though. I don't beieve I would have found BTI if I had been through what I have the last few months. Now I am so much stronger and have alot more support than I did this time last year.
I feel much more able to cope with pregnancy and having a new baby, and my partner and I are closer because of my experiences.
Maybe my baby did send me the dream. I certainly will never forget it.
I am eating so well now and no guilt. It's wonderful!!
Even though I am only 5 weeks, I have a little tummy already. Maybe it's twins! My partner is a twin!!! LOL
LOVE JJ xxx